ugh.

Ok, if last night did ANYTHING for me, it proved a point:

Though I am one who acknowledges the beauty of the male species, I am NOT in a relationship, NOT INTERESTED, and HAVE NEVER had a BOYFRIEND. Pshh. I still believe boys have kooties. Though I may speak of how "fine" or "hot" certain men are, that's where it ends. I have a standard, I am on a mission, and college is too friggin expensive for me to waste my time on trying to hook up. I have a family that is watching me (a family that is rather extensive) and siblings looking up to me. Some people know that I talk about how cute a guy can be, but sheesh; that is SOO where it ends :)

I say all of the above because of an event that happened last night. My RA scheduled an outing with our brother floor (the males on the other side of the hall) that made me feel quite disgusted. OMG. We had to walk around campus at night linking arms with the opposite sex, and introducing ourselves etc. Before the outing a friends jokingly called it "speed dating". Funny, looking back that's exactly what it felt like. I'm a bohemian TOMBOY. When our RA had called it an "outing with our brother floor" I thought we were going nature hiking, playing board games or something, but nothing so... uggh. Last week our RA started dating this guy she's known for a little while so I think now she wants US to get a taste of that. I am SOO not down with it. All girls aren't like that. I am NOT LIKE THAT. I want to have a balanced relationship with men and women, but nothing that goes beyond loyal friendship.

This is definitely one instance in which I can slap myself. Why didn't I stay in my room? UGH. You live and learn. I am here for school and making friends. I have to be smarter whilst making decisions. Time to be an adult in more than theory.

Time to step up and live what I truly believe.
Chimene