It'll Settle Soon.

Today I said goodbye to my church family. Envisioning this day, I just knew tears were in store.... To my relief, no tears happened. I promise that if I began to cry there would be no stopping me.

It seems that editing photos from friday's shoot has been an amazing diversion for me: I haven't really had time to think about my being gone.




I mean, every now and then the thought might occur "What will my family do without me?", "Will they eat dinner on time, go to bed on time, will laundry get done...?". It'll settle soon. Maybe when they're leaving me in my dorm room and I have Rebecca on one side, my refrigerator on the other, and the door to my future in front of me.

I have 3 days until my life is CHANGED FOREVER. Three days to live as I might never be able to live again: dependent teen; live-in older sister; live-in daughter; free food-no bills-can you do it for me, Mom-pay for me, please, Dad---In 3 days it'll all come to a slow, descending close. GOSH.

What can be realized in three days?

What can be birthed within me?

What is embedded in three days

That's left on this life's clock to see?

In three days a life can be over.

In three days a life can begin.

And just like a three leafed clover

I'm green from inside to within.

Three days I have to recognize

That I am completely blessed

To be raised under watching eyes

That contented the heart in my chest.

Three days can mean so much

Yet they can be nothing at all

Full of hours gentle to the touch---

An eagle commaning its young to fall...

~Chimene, 8.23.09~

...I can't hold back the tears any longer. Goodnight.