Separation

Blog overload= updating you.

I lost the bulk of my friends this semester but I can't really see it as a loss.

Rather I see it as either God removing from me people who had no business in my life to begin with or me distancing myself from people who have no business with in the future (they won't add to me).


I am also dealing with that I am a complete prude who is 54 years old on the inside and has no problem exhbiting such on the outside. I have had many numerous conversations with myself and my mother about this complex I have. I can come across dry, boring, motherly, and too mature. There's no balance with me; I need to learn how to bring my guard down and have FUN. I've always been so absorbed with becoming SOMEONE that it's completely escaped me that I need people in this developing process. UGHHHH... I want to be able to have a conversation with my PEER GROUP but feel as if it's an exchange process of intellectualism and not just listening to their issues and crap and nonsense about situations they can handle if they'd just grow a pair or call their parents.


Until then, I find solace in God, poetry, my journal, and old books.

Chimene